Misinterpretation?

'Trials will show you that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold.'-1 Peter 1:7

And thats the scripture I tell myself when we get into fights. I tell myself 'this is a test, this a test. what am I learning?' but lately, it hasn't been cutting it. I'm honestly starting to believe we just need to seriously suck it up and this is just our own doing.

How can we be so fricking bipolar like this? For one hour, we're all fricking good and then all of a sudden - we're fricking fighting and wanting to leave. I'm trying, honestly honestly am. But how can I not want to leeeeeeeeeeeave?

I know I said it wasn't an option, I try not to make it one. But if I get you in the end, maybe we can just put this off till later.